It’s my birthday today, and OMG! I am turning 45!! Normally I won’t make it a big deal nor we celebrate with big feast (is the husband reading??), but half way into my life journey — yes I plan to live to 90 years old so I can see and be entertained by my grandchildren, what do I want for this special day?
Funny enough that sometime last week I got call from a company interested in my background and experience, asked if I would consider to role that has potential to grow, and well, you know those rosy things they tell you before bringing you on board. It would be great if this happened years ago when I was really looking for jobs, I wrote it here and here; unfortunately the commute plus long hours in the office (minimum required 7am~7pm) plus the “being told what to do” for about $75K turned me off. There is no way I am willing to trade half of my time just to fit into other people’s schedule, not even for money.
So what do I want? A title may. Look at friends my age, Managing Director, Partner, or Chief Strategist, all sorts make me feel good. Well, come to think about it, I do have some of these glamorous titles;
CEO = Control Education Office
I am responsible for my girls’ education, both academically and socially. I need to know what they learn in regular day school, in Chinese school, in various sports and activities, without over scheduling or write them off because they are not performing well, or not showing talents. I need to know the causes lead to results to worry less.
CFO = Control Feedings Officer
I am responsible for everything my family eat, I may not go out of my way to buy all organic but I am definitely conscious and pay close attention to what I buy (and hubby cooks) to put on the table. To keep on top of being healthy, I need to know the nutrients and nutrition well to worry less.
CMO = Control Media Officer
I am responsible for my girls’ media encounter experiences, including TV shows, movies and internet. They only watch the shows I approved and my ears are always up for what’s been said in the conversation, I absolutely go to movies with them so we can discuss afterwards, I setup Gmail accounts AND the passwords for them so I can lurk when I sensed odd situations. When it comes to internet gaming/surfing, we are VERY clear that (1) don’t give out parents email addresses unless you have permissions, (2) no downloading unless one of parents agrees, (3) never ever chat with people you don’t know in real life online, unless ahem, you are on social media. Some of these rules may seem stringent and certainly will change when the girls get older, but for now I need to get it in their heads early to worry less.
Yes, I am a Control-Freak, and not ashamed to admit it; I don’t thing there’s anything wrong if all I want to have control is for my family’s well being and protect them in this society. Without my family, I am nothing.
You think I have it? Do I have it all? While I am working on it, I am also buying some cool stuff from Roots Canada, because it’s 25% off + free shipping and the cyber-weekend sale ends on my birthday.
ps–I am not affiliated with Roots Canada (although I wish!), they simply have good stuff!!